For the Inquiring Mind

I’ve not written a blog post in such a long time, so here goes nothing.  I must preface this post by saying that I was prompted to write the following because as I’ve been facilitating session work recently and sharing more openly with various groups and have had quite a number of inquiries into to the work I’m doing and I felt the need to be less generalized and to give a bit more in-depth/expansive perspective into what “holding space” or “facilitating sessions” means to me.

For those who have participated in my sessions before, you probably already know this, and in case you haven’t, I use the chakras as reference points within the physical body that are fairly basic and easy for most to understand – I do this not because I only work specifically on the chakras – but as a general means of focus in the body.  I find that this helps, coupled with the breathing, to assist in the movement of energy within the field so that those participating find themselves in a relaxed state fairly quickly – this relaxed state is imperative in the release of resistance necessary for the energy brought forth during a session to “do its job,” to integrate, and to be allowed.  This focus on the chakras also assists in “making room” – releasing what no longer serves – and creates space for energy to be received.

Over the last 3 years, I’ve tried various methods to assist others in reaching this relaxed state and find that the use of the chakras as focal points has been most beneficial – in time, this may change, but for now it works remarkably well.  I feel like I must also say that I have not formally been trained in any other energy work/energy healing modalities and that this process is something that has evolved for me over the last few years, intuitively and based on biofeedback from clients.

Because I’ve not shared this with very many people, for various reasons, I feel that now is an appropriate time to be a bit more open about the sessions that I facilitate.  I do not like to label the work I do because I find labeling, based on intentionality alone, extremely limiting (it even feels restrictive ) – as I know the potential lies within the vastness of limitlessness – and I like for those I’m working with to experience any and all expansion that is equal to their vibration, desire and allowing.  I don’t like to put a lid on any of it.  Because of this, when explaining how the sessions work, I typically keep it very general.  But at this point, I feel that keeping things broad and generalizing is also somewhat limiting in its own right.

Some folks prefer keeping it “simple” and sticking with the idea of chakra attunement/alignment and so forth, which is perfectly fine, because this does happen during the session and this is very beneficial.  But – for depth and perspective – I’d just like to share more about myself and what I’ve come to know about some of the guides and energies that I work with (but, feel it’s worth mentioning that everyone has their own guides and energies that they work with, and that these energies and guides are always fluctuating depending on our vibratory stance.)

I am a facilitator|conduit and open and omnipresent Being to many guides.  In my session work, I create a sacred space/hold space in which one can release resistance and essentially access the energies/frequencies of the guides, collectives, beings, etc. meant for them/the collective in that moment – for the benefit of healing, clearing, expansion, activation, attunement, etc. – that is equal to their vibration/frequency, desire and allowing.  Whatever is “received” or released during the sessions is perfect and in divine order according to the unique energetic path/spiritual journey each individual is experiencing.  The benefits of experiencing energy in this way are immeasurable – I’ve been a witness to so many different outcomes.  I’ve had people come to me amidst a panic attack and within a couple of minutes they felt a profound sense of calm.  I’ve had folks reach out to me who were in the throes of an emotional crisis and the session brought them back to a place of neutrality and clarity.  I’ve also had others experiencing pain within the physical body and within a short time their pain had drastically minimized or all-together disappeared.  And I’ve also witnessed folks intent on expansion report back their very own personal epiphanies and ah-ha moments.  It’s simply a matter of coming into the space, relaxing into the potential, clearing out space within your field and allowing what is available to you in the now.

As I stated before, I believe that due to our unique individual journeys and energetic signatures, we all have a vast array of guides/beings/energies etc. working with us at all times – whether we are conscious of these aspects or not.  As for me, I am aware of a few different guides/collectives/energies that I work with consciously.  As for the first guide I’d like to share about, I want to give a bit of a back story for context.  I’ve been drawn to crystals and gems for a long time and began actively using them for their various metaphysical and healing properties a few years ago.  When I first began using crystals, I would find that I could feel very tangibly and palpably, in my body, the different energies and personalities of the various stones I was using.  I would also sense a shift in my field of awareness rather noticeably.  And I also noticed that it would take a very short amount of time to attune to the frequency of the stones – as if they quickly became a part of me, or as if they were a key to unlocking what I already knew was within.  So it was very synchronistic and very validating for me to come to know that I have a guide by the name of “Gem.” and this guide is one of a 7th dimensional Pleiadian collective.  “She” is a feminine energy that assists me in working within crystalline energies and since becoming aware of my ability to work within this dimensional energy, has truly facilitated a deeper knowing that whatever crystal/gem and it’s properties or healing benefits are equal to what I already hold within.  It’s been a remembering that there is no need to look for these frequencies outside of myself.   I do utilize this knowing in my session work – it is my intention – when I create the space for the session, I know that any of crystalline energies and their corresponding metaphysical properties or healing benefits will be made available to those participating in the session if appriopriate.  Now mind you, this is not to say that I don’t absolutely love love love my crystals – I have so many and I revere them; they are my dear friends.  As a matter of fact, I was just gifted a record keeper ruby a few days ago and had the most remarkable experience with it in meditation – an experience I will share another time.

Another guide I feel and am aware of most-often is Jesus, not in the Jesus-as-a-person sense, but the Christ Consciousness.  For me, it’s a feeling/a deep knowing, and I feel distinctly in my body when this energy is present (and there aren’t really proper words to explain all of this as words just don’t do any of it justice) and while some may only know Jesus as a figure from religious text, in my experience, this Christ Consciousness is one of a wide range of crystalline energetics.  While I have the ability to work into the Pleiadian energies and beyond, I know that the Christ Consciousness is to be used as a multidimensional tool.

For me, and the energy that I work with, grounding is extremely important and necessary – as it is for everyone in this time.  I am aware of a guide that I have by the name of Chief Mohawk, who is sort of representative of a collective of native energies that are “located” in and around my sacral center.  This native energy/collective is here to assist me with grounding and connecting to Mother Earth energies – which is vitally important for each of us – as well as Mother Earth herself.  I do call forth the assistance of these guides when facilitating grounding during session work.  There is so much healing and information available to each of us just by connecting and grounding our fields with that of the Mother Earth – there is a profound sense of peace and harmony that comes with this connection.

Finally, I know that I am here in this time to magnify and magnetize the Divine Feminine.  To anchor in the Divine Feminine is to embody a deeply held connection to Mother Earth, nature, Love, and creation and I see all the ways this energy has been impacting me for longer than I may realize.  In hindsight I see clearly how stepping more fully into this energy has softened me, made me more fluid and open and tolerant and loving and nurturing, while at the same time, has helped me step more fully into some of the aspects of the Divine Feminine that I may have resisted or blocked, out of fear or because of past conditioning.  I also see, in my experience, how the magnification of the Divine Feminine is allowing such healing and clearing of so many timelines and lineages, particularly those heavy with density as a result of a masculine imbalance.  This has been my experience, anyway.  I won’t go too deeply into multidimensionality or the healing of lineages…for now.

I guess the only other things I would like to share about myself and this session work is that it is beneficial for all – no matter the age, gender, religious affiliation.  It does not contraindicate any medications you may be taking.  However…I have had some clients come to me when they are coming off of a prescription medication that is causing withdrawal symptoms.  While this is not substitute for any tapering methods or directives given by a physician, I have witnessed it helping shorten the length of withdrawal or minimize symptoms…which is always a bonus.  I have found also, having a few clients that I have worked with regularly for nearly 3 years, that this session work is particularly useful when working within the emotional body.  I believe that this is tied to the rise in the Divine Feminine also, but that is just my intuitive take.

Aside from the session work and guides and collectives, I have brought forth my own energy in this time – this energy resides in the area of my crown and kind of swirls around – it is golden/white/iridescent energy that streams from the top of my head down into my arms and out of my hands. I’ve experienced numerous activations when becoming aware of this energy and have seen and experienced this energy in several visions.  I do call forth this energy in my session work, but find that this is most beneficial in any hands-on healing that I’m given the opportunity to do.  This energy is such a beautiful, cleansing, high-frequency energy and I’ve been told (although I’ve not gotten too much opportunity to work with children) that this particular energy is really good when working with pregnant women, infants, children as well as animals. I have actually worked both remotely and hands-on with a few dogs, all with positive feedback and results.

I should probably add, because I’ve been asked this a lot, that I do not communicate with spirit in a way in which I receive and am able to relay messages – that’s not how it works for me, not now, anyway. However, once I connect with someone, because I am highly empathic and am tuning in more intuitively, I can provide insight or perspective. I must say, I do enjoy when someone trusts me enough to come to me for advice or direction, I love holding space for others in this way as well.

All this said, I think that it’s important to know oneself as an energetic being. I like knowing this about myself and I am passionate about others coming to know this for themselves too. It adds such a magical and empowering layer to this life here on Earth. And at the end of the day, it doesn’t really matter who my guides are, it’s important to know that we all have these teams of non-physical energies available to us all the time. So, knowing when you engage in session work, it’s not about what I bring forth – it’s truly, and simply a matter of coming into the space, relaxing into the potential, clearing out space within your field and allowing what is available to you in the now. Filling your energetic container with more of what is beneficial for and supportive of you in your journey of growth and expansion. And I’m here to be of service in any way I can. Much love to each and every one of you.

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The Afternoon of Our Lives

In lieu of Flashback Friday, I’m going to take it on back to a few weeks ago when I was sitting outside on the porch having a very pleasurable and thought-provoking phone conversation during which I was asked, “What do YOU believe?” Great question! Well, at the time, I didn’t have a very good answer – fairly certain I offered up what I was feeling at the time – but the question has been hanging out in the back of my mind since. “What DO you believe, Amy?”

So a couple of days ago, I got home from work and found myself back on the porch and as I was thumbing through social media I saw, because of his recent transition into the non-physical (I prefer to not use the word “death” anymore), that Wayne Dyer’s movie The Shift was streaming for free so I took the opportunity to give it a watch. Needless to say, it was phenomenal. In the movie, Wayne speaks of a “shift” in one’s life which is triggered by what he refers to as a “quantum moment” which has been defined as “a moment in which you feel different, moved emotionally… responding to what would otherwise be an ordinary situation, but you respond instead in an extraordinary way… increasing your ability to perceive and process information vital to you and your purpose in being here,” and describes the shift as “stepping into the afternoon of our life” and I’ll quote him to further illustrate the point:

“Carl Jung writes that the afternoon of our lives represents the time when we begin to shift away from the ego being the dominant force in our life. We begin moving towards a life journey that has meaning. The morning of our lives is really occupied by ambition—getting as much as you can, collecting as much stuff as you can get, impressing as many people as you can, preparing yourself for a job, saving your money, setting goals, pleasing everybody, and doing the right thing. Even getting good grades in school revolved around the ego part of us, which really believes that who we are is what we do, what we get, and what other people think of us. That’s basically the essence of the ego. In the afternoon of your life, you don’t do life. You do what resonates with the callings of your soul.” – Wayne Dyer

In the movie, he uses the Tao and Lao-Tzu’s “four cardinal virtues” as a means to outline what it means to live a source-aligned life once you’ve made “the shift.” I read the Tao Te Ching back in my first semester of college and while I was too young and oblivious to really care, I’m grateful to have been sort of reintroduced to it in the context of this movie because the practice of these “virtues” speaks to me at the deepest level – I love how Wayne explains the four virtues as applied to daily life so I’ll share his thoughts:

Some 2,500 years ago, Lao-tzu spoke of “the four cardinal virtues” and noted that when we practice them as a way of life, we come to know and access the truth of the universe. These four virtues don’t represent external dogma, but a part of our original nature—by practicing them, we realign with Source and access the powers that Source energy has to offer. According to the teachings of Lao-tzu, the four cardinal virtues represent the surest way to …reconnect to your original nature. The more your life is harmonized with the four virtues, the less you’re controlled by the uncompromising ego.

The First Cardinal Virtue: Reverence for All Life
The first cardinal virtue manifests in your daily life as unconditional love and respect for all beings in creation. This includes making a conscious effort to love and respect yourself, as well as to remove all judgments and criticisms. Understand that you are a piece of God, and since you must be like what you came from, you are lovable, worthy, and Godlike. Affirm this as often as you can, for when you see yourself in a loving way, you have nothing but love to extend outward. And the more you love others, the less you need old excuse patterns, particularly those relating to blame.

The Second Cardinal Virtue: Natural Sincerity
This virtue manifests itself as honesty, simplicity, and faithfulness; and it’s summed up by the popular reminder to be true to yourself. Using an excuse to explain why your life isn’t working at the level you prefer isn’t being true to yourself—when you’re completely honest and sincere, excuses don’t even enter into the picture. The second virtue involves living a life that reflects choices that come from respect and affection for your own nature.

Make truth your most important attribute. Walk your talk; that is, become sincere and honest in all that you say and do. If you find this to be a challenge, take a moment to affirm: I no longer need to be insincere or dishonest. This is who I am, and this is how I feel. When you know and trust yourself, you also know and trust the Divinity that created you. If you live from honesty, sincerity, and faithfulness to the callings of your spirit, you’ll never have occasion to use excuses.

The Third Cardinal Virtue: Gentleness
This virtue personifies one of my favorite and most frequently employed maxims: “When you have the choice to be right or to be kind, always pick kind.” So many of your old thinking habits and their attendant excuses come out of a need to make yourself right and others wrong. When you practice this third virtue, you eliminate conflicts that result in your need to explain why you’re right. This virtue manifests as kindness, consideration for others, and sensitivity to spiritual truth.

Gentleness generally implies that you no longer have a strong ego-inspired desire to dominate or control others, which allows you to move into a rhythm with the universe. You cooperate with it, much like a surfer who rides with the waves instead of trying to overpower them. Gentleness means accepting life and people as they are, rather than insisting that they be as you are. As you practice living this way, blame disappears and you enjoy a peaceful world.

The Fourth Cardinal Virtue: Supportiveness
This virtue manifests in your life as service to others without any expectation of reward. Once again, when you extend yourself in a spirit of giving, helping, or loving, you act as God acts. As you consider the many excuses that have dominated your life, look carefully at them—you’ll see that they’re all focused on the ego: I can’t do this. I’m too busy or too scared. I’m unworthy. No one will help me. I’m too old. I’m too tired. Now imagine shifting your attention off of yourself and asking the universal mind How may I serve? When you do so, the message you’re sending is: I’m not thinking about myself and what I can or can’t have. Your attention is on making someone else feel better.

The greatest joy comes from giving and serving, so replace your habit of focusing exclusively on yourself and what’s in it for you. When you make the shift to supporting others in your life, without expecting anything in return, you’ll think less about what you want and find comfort and joy in the act of giving and serving.

To revere all of life, to live with natural sincerity, to practice gentleness, and to be in service to others is to replicate the energy field from which you originated.” – Wayne Dyer

I know for those who will most-likely read this, it sounds like amateur hour. But, I’m sharing this today because…this is what I believe.  Anyone who is a “light worker” or on a spiritual journey understands that practicing these virtues is the basis of heart-centered consciousness. It is the way to raise one’s frequency, to “replicate the energy field from which you originated.” Relaxing into the flow of life and taking the path of least resistance is the most efficient way to integrate new light and energy. I believe that when we realign with Source that we can truly access the powers that Source energy has to offer. Realigning with Source brings magick back into life. For me, since the initial “shift” I’ve experience numerous “quantum moments” and numerous “shifts” and each has brought about a new level of awareness, and expanded consciousness. It’s an ongoing evolutionary process and I’m very much enjoying the unfolding of it all. All of the amazing energetic experiences, the ability to do energy work, greater intuitive abilities, ability to discern, empathic abilities…all of these things that I’m experiencing are a by-product of a Source-aligned journey, and for that I am happy and joyful and grateful to have found myself in the afternoon of my life.

There’s Always a Reason to Celebrate

Today I’m celebrating the one year anniversary of my website (by writing a very wordy post with lots of commas) – YAY!  I suppose since it’s been a while since I’ve written, I’ll talk a bit about what’s been going on with me lately. Just throwing out a disclaimer, for those of you who may read this who haven’t paid a bit of attention to any of my Facebook posts or that haven’t read any previous blog posts, I do not see myself as simply human. Okay? There you have it, cat’s out of the bag, let’s move along now, shall we? I AM an energetic being experiencing a physical manifestation here on this lovely place we call Earth. (This does not mean that I think I’m an alien – and for those unfamiliar with the term “energetic being”, I mean that aside from this flesh and bone costume I’m wearing, I am made of divine light and information.) And so are all of you! And whether you choose to take life to that level of experience is completely and totally up to you – and it’s all good, either way. Our experiences here are so perfectly individualized and so unique to each of us, it takes all kinds to keep this elaborate dance going – so I embrace all the differences and love them and am grateful for the contrast they provide, otherwise, what would be the point? Let’s face it – this isn’t necessarily, particularly in my neck of the woods, the things that people typically talk about. So – I have to give thanks to my network of like-minded-truth-seeking-heart-centered spiritual friends across the globe, you beautiful beings have helped to make my current reality a less lonely, and more accepted one.

Please don’t get me wrong, the purpose in sharing my experiences is not to push any kind of ideas or agendas or beliefs on anyone else; I share out of sheer open-bookness and a need and willingness to be authentic, honest and transparent. And, I happen to think that experiencing life at this level is amazing. And intellectually stimulating. And deep. And interesting. And magickal. And FUN. Well, it’s not all fun…hahaha. The whole initial process of awakening is scary as shit and uncomfortable and humbling and confusing and freaking lonely – but, it’s necessary. I think it’s necessary if you want reclaim your connection with your divine self, your connection to All That Is, and to truly embrace the knowing that you are an expression of divinity in form. And for me, it took stripping away so much of who I thought I was, it took experiencing a lot of emotional clearing and the dissolving of old ways of thinking and behavioral patterns – things that no longer resonated with me and where I’m at on my journey, in order for me to come to this realization. And through the breaking down and rebuilding and the extensive emotional clearing, which essentially is like cleaning out the closet to make room for more of what you want, I’ve not only been able to really come back into alignment with who I feel I truly am (a work in progress) but I’m really getting the hang (at least for now…until the next shift happens) of what it’s like to be an energetic being – what it takes/feels like to release what no longer serves me (and knowing I have the power to do so) and what it feels like in my body to experience shifts in energy, taking on new energies and what it is in my experience to integrate said energies. Mind you, I’m still experiencing these emotional upheavals but they are becoming less frequent and less intense.  Having the awareness that what is being “removed/cleared” is only being replaced with light/information and just relaxing into whatever arises helps the process move along more efficiently. It seems that with each “clearing + receiving of energy + integration of energy” process, it’s like a level-up in this elaborate game of life. It’s a raising of awareness, an expansion of consciousness, a new level of understanding and once fully integrated, it’s on to the next round…and I’ve come to find the process quite enjoyable. I really love what Matt Kahn had to say about expanding and the building of consciousness – and that just like everything else, it’s an ever-evolving process.

“If we think of the universe as a building, every floor of the building there’s a different way life works.  And so the way life works at one stage is going to be relevant to that floor of exploration.  And then the next floor we realize it doesn’t work that way anymore and we expand our consciousness to a different set of awareness or standard of living.  And we literally go through this pattern where everything we learn we soon wake up from.  So, the tendency of, ‘I realized a truth and I make that the only truth’ becomes something that we’re gonna wake up from inevitably, and the only thing we don’t wake up from, and the thing that gets revealed more and more throughout any state you are in the journey or whatever floor you’re on in the building of consciousness, is love…

The most powerful teaching for mankind is: ‘if love is the one thing that you don’t wake up out of, then love is where we start and love is what we explore throughout the journey. Love is the ultimate exploration.’” – Matt Kahn

I whole-heartedly agree that Love is the ultimate exploration. This is something that makes more sense to me than anything else throughout all of this so far. Through the process of awakening and expanding and building of consciousness, we are able to come to a place where we know that we are an expression of divinity in form. Divinity/God/Source is the purest love energy from which we all came. And to know ourselves as divinity and that what we experience, good/bad/ugly/happy/sad/whatever, couldn’t possibly be ANYTHING other than PERFECT. So once we embrace the perfection of our experience, we are able to relax into the flow and come into alignment with Source. And by relaxing into this flow and allowing and loving whatever arises, we are able to really tune in to ourselves and really start to pay attention to just how much we have an impact on our experience through our thoughts and emotions. Our outer reality and what we’re experiencing is a direct reflection of our inner landscape – and we have choices within each moment, perhaps choosing to think/react positively vs. choosing/react in a negative manner. And most importantly, in my opinion, is our willingness to be honest with ourselves about ourselves. Your willingness to be an honest authentic YOU determines the amount of resistance you experience within your body/your reality. Either you’re in alignment or you’re not. Something I find so fascinating about honesty/authenticity (and I’m not talking about the go-around-just-saying-whatever-is on-your-mind type of honesty, I’m speaking of honesty as a means to truly come into alignment with your divine Self…) is that not only is it good to just be an honest person in general (why lie? I mean, really?!) but that each time you say something, react in a certain way, think, or believe something that is out of alignment with your true self, you are disconnecting from source/disconnecting from your body/mind. When in a state of disconnect, the evidence can manifest in a number of ways. For me, I know when I am alignment because when I’m being completely honest and am connected, I feel a sense of relaxation and joy and happiness and I find myself in that now-moment-feel-good-flow and life just seems to work better.  When I’m not being honest/authentic, or if I’m thinking in a way that is not in alignment with who I am as an expression of divinity, I’ll feel bad in my body. I’ll experience weird crappy emotions, thoughts, and there’s always the potential of becoming so disconnected that it’ll manifest itself as sickness or illness. Or it’ll just feel like I’m standing in the middle of a shit-storm.

How’s that for a little glimpse into what I’ve been experiencing? Ohhhh…I could go on and on for days about the intricacies of my personal energetic experiences, particularly in regards to the crazy physical sensations during energetic integration, the “symptoms” of the shifting energies that are currently going on, the synchronicities, the changes in my body that I’ve noticed, or the fantastic visions I’ve had during meditation. I could get really deep and detailed about how I think all of this is just a small fraction of the vastness of the whole grand design.  Then there’s always the multidimensionality aspect of it all….but, I think I’ll save all that for a rainy day.

Bottom line – I am proud of how far I’ve come, where I am, who I am and what I know myself to BE. I’m going to continue to shine my light, to anchor in these new energies, to uplift and support others, to do what feels good and right to me and for me, and strive to remain the heart-centered-balanced-light-bearer that I know myself to be.  I will continue to send out love and blessings and good vibes to all because we all need more love, not less.

With that said – I’m going to switch topics for a moment…

When I launched this website exactly a year ago today, so much had changed and transformed in my life in the five months prior to that first blog post.  Considering that I was in such a whirlwind of energy/excitement/information and being the total spiritual-newbie I was, I was still trying to navigate the raging waters of my recent awakening, I wasn’t sure what, if anything, would come of this website.  All I knew is that I had a reached a point where I felt confident enough to put myself out there and I created a space where I could openly and honestly share my experiences if I wanted and I was super excited to use the website as a platform to offer energy sessions.

So…here we are, one whole year later.  While I’ve not utilized the blog portion of the website as much as I had hoped I would by this point, I am thrilled and it is with a heart overflowing with joy and gratitude that I can say that over the last year I have had the absolute pleasure of facilitating energy sessions with over 100 people – friends, family, co-workers, perfect strangers and quite a few people in various places across the world.  I’ve learned so much about myself through this session work and working with others and it has completely evolved my views on health, well-being and the true innate power we hold as energetic beings in this physical manifestation.

It’s funny, because when I first started doing this work it just made me so excited to share it and I wanted to shout it from the rooftops!  But unfortunately, it wasn’t exactly something I felt I could just go around broadcasting because the concept isn’t really well-known or accepted as legitimate, and in the spirit of honesty, people think it’s bullshit. I did share my services via Facebook a number of times but it didn’t feel right to force it, and I felt as though since the abilities came about in their own perfect time I figured, if people needed/wanted my assistance, they would come across my info or reach out to me when the time was right for them. Because of the fear and uncertainty of being accepted, I struggled with embracing and identifying myself as an “energy healer.” But thankfully, because of the connections I’ve made with my clients and the positive experiences and results they have shared with me and with others – and because the work speaks for itself – I stand firm in knowing myself as not so much an “energy healer” but rather an “energy worker.” I hesitate to use the word “healer” simply because I feel that saying that I am an “energy healer” implies that I have some kind of power or control over another, which I do not. What I feel I am actually able to do within this session work is to hold a particular space for my clients. To facilitate what I feel is a vibrational environment that engages a person’s field. The space I am able to hold places my client in a state of allowing so that any energetic process they are ready for/is necessary for them on their journey in that moment can take place.

It can be quite frustrating considering that this type of energy work doesn’t come with a manual – so, it’s been through, and only through, feeling into the process intuitively and my experience in working with clients, their feedback and their results following the sessions, that I’ve come to some understanding about the benefits of the work. I will say that since my intuitive abilities have been increasing, I’ve had a few instances recently where I’ve been able to just “know” of an issue a person is having by simply connecting with them and feeling into their energy (which I’m extremely happy about and is a really cool thing to experience!) And, I love that word seems to be getting around and that not only am I able to comfortably identify with my abilities, but that others are starting to see me in that way as well. It makes my heart soar when someone stops me in the hall to ask me about energy work. I even love it when my friends joke about it and call me a witch, or “energetic xanax,” or come to me with a headache, a migraine, backache, or on the verge of a panic attack, because they’ve experienced relief from the work before. I especially love it when someone says, “I need you to work your magic on me.” These are the kinds of things that remind me to stand firm in who I am and what I’m capable of – fear be damned – because having to keep under wraps any of our unique gifts or pieces or parts, for whatever reason, makes it impossible for us to be in alignment with our true selves.

Alrighty. I think I’ve rambled on long enough – but, before I bid you adieu, and at the risk of sounding super cheesy – I just want everyone to know that I am here for you in whatever capacity I can be. I make a mean listening ear. I am always willing to make myself available for sessions. For those inquiring minds, I’m always up for answering questions. I really experience so much joy when I’m able to assist others and am always grateful for the opportunity.

THANK YOU, at the very least, for reading and for being a part of my journey.

Sending you all so much love and gratitude ❤

“Misshapen chaos of well-seeming forms…”

Intuition – instinctive knowledge: the state of being aware of or knowing something without having to discover or perceive it, or the ability to do this.

I really make a conscious effort to not worry.  At 33, I feel as though I’ve spent too much of my life worrying as it is. If you’ve ever lived with crippling anxiety then you can probably understand that somehow, along the way, worry becomes like a shitty best friend. You recognize that it’s a part of you and although it causes you pain, you just can’t seem to get rid of it. Luckily, I have come to a point in my life (thankfully, sooner rather than later) where I’ve realized that worrying IS essentially “praying for what you don’t want.” And once I fully embraced and acknowledged the concept, I ditched that shitty best friend like a bad habit. Although, it still visits me from time-to-time, like an out-of-town friend home for the weekend, or something – I don’t have to deal with it NEARLY as much.

The past few days, well…more like the past week, I have just felt as though something was off. Intuitively, everything seemed fine. And as far as I knew, everything of import was plugging along swimmingly. However, even though all of my metaphorical ducks seemed to be in a row, things have been feeling extremely chaotic. After about four days of this unease and just NOT understanding what in the world was going on…I really started sort of breaking down a bit and the worry reared its annoying head. So, what does Amy do when the worry sets in? She begins to question everything under the sun, of course!  Hunting for the logic.  Searching for the “whys.” Thoughts, actions, emotions, relationships…no stone unturned. I pilfered through my mental catalog of situations/conversations I could have maybe handled better, things I should have/shouldn’t have said, things I should have done differently…

”What have I done/not done that is causing this uncomfortable shit storm that seems to be whirling around me?”  This was pretty much my last thought as I closed my eyes before sleep last night. After a night of what seemed like a never-ending string of strange dreams, I woke up to the sound of my alarm and in the split-second before I cracked open my eyes, I was already wondering if today was going to be another one of those days. As I opened my eyes and my feet hit the floor, I knew today was a going to be different. There is an obvious, palpable and very noticeable difference in the energy within my field. The chaos has lifted.

You know, you gotta really love and appreciate hindsight. Although this had been going on for only a week, when I find myself in the midst of this low-frequency mind-talk ridiculousness, the days seem never-ending. And in my experience, when I get to this point, I feel a sense of desperation for the feeling to end and I will over-work it and over-analyze it to death until I’ve got it figured out. However, today…I am able to see a valuable lesson in it all. And, in hindsight, this is a pattern that I should have recognized and acknowledged by now. One can never really be sure of why things are the way they are but I like to think that this was just some cosmic reminder for me to just surrender, have faith and trust my intuition. See…I KNOW that I KNEW, intuitively, during this seven-day-absolute-insult-to-my-6th-sense, that everything was FINE. Why the worry, then? Why the questioning? Why the self-doubt? I can’t be sure. But, on the bright side, I’ve realized that if I really tune-in, if I take an internal inventory, and if at the very center of myself I feel peace – regardless of what is swirling around me on the outside – that I should just go with that. Trust myself. Go with my gut. Have some faith.

I was just having a conversation with a girlfriend yesterday about this very thing. She and I were discussing intuition and wondering why, even when we know in our heart-of-hearts the truth of a situation, it’s sometimes so difficult to just GO with our gut. It didn’t take long for us to come to the conclusion that there’s nothing quite as satisfying as validation – that seeking an outside source to confirm what you already know to be true/right within – essentially seeking something outside yourself to tell you, “it’s okay…you CAN actually trust yourself.” Maybe there are some insecurities at play here…and there’s always the trust issues. Hell, I’m no stranger to insecurity and the occasional trust issue, but that’s not the point. The point is, there is a reason that those who are intuitively inclined are, and we should be thankful for it and cultivate it for it is truly a gift.

Again, in hindsight, I realize that this scenario has played out for me so many times before – only this time I’m making a serious mental note to remember this during future seemingly-chaotic times. I see it clearly now that whenever there is a period of craziness and weirdness and things feeling very unsettled, there is always something beautiful to follow. Makes me think of a quote that says it so much better than what I’m attempting to articulate:

“In chaos, there is fertility.” ― Anaïs Nin

32nd Year

Tomorrow is my 33rd birthday.

In lieu of Thanksgiving, I’m going to give thanks for my 32nd year.  What.  A.  Year.

Honestly, I can’t properly sum up into words the grand mind-f*ck this year has been.  God, you know, it would be really easy for me to say that it has been a shit year, because let’s be honest, parts of it were pretty bad and really hard and really difficult, with extreme highs and extreme lows.  But now, as I round out this year, I somehow find myself very much in the middle.  And, in this respect, the middle is a great place to be.  With no idea how long I’ll be living on this earth – I can say, without a doubt, that my 32nd year is going down in my personal history as the most transformational, eye-opening, emotional, beautiful, magical and meaningful year yet – aside from the year I became a mother (which is a given.)  So much has happened this year that could (and probably should) have reduced me down to the scum that I sometimes felt like I was, but I find myself on a plateau after a pretty rough, rocky and sometimes near-impossible climb.  I have come to a place where I find myself stronger now than I’ve ever been – physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.  All of the decisions that I made this year, have been out of a place of pure gut-feeling and intuition.  And I can’t feel sorry for any of that.  Feeling sorry for any of this would imply that I have regrets…and I don’t.  I believe that there is nothing quite as beautiful as being able to come from an authentic place, a place of truthfulness and honesty.  And as I reflect back on this year, I recall so many things, moments, situations, conversations, realizations and most importantly, people, that have both directly and indirectly helped me along this course of change.  Change is fucking scary, albeit sometimes necessary. 

Sometimes – we think we know who we are, or who we’re meant to be.  Sometimes our path is pretty cut & dry and we’re more-or-less cool with it.  Other times, the wonder of “what else?” is like a kid pulling at our pant leg, begging for our attention.  More often times than not, we’re a product of our surroundings and limited experiences, not really paying attention to that deep inner knowing that we are much more than what we’ve allowed ourselves to be.  It’s easy to lose ourselves in the sea of convenience, complacency or just not giving ourselves enough damn credit.  That sea can calmly guide you through this life as you float along, punching that clock, paying those bills, playing those cookie-cutter roles, participating in “the norm.”  It’s almost as though when you start to question things, when you take a closer look or when you acknowledge the unseen…you rock that boat.  Then the sea becomes rough and angry and the waves start crashing and you’ve conveniently forgotten how to swim and you begin to wonder if you’re going to make it out alive.  Then you let go.  You trust in the divine plan and it’s timing, go with the flow, and regardless of what is going on around you, you somehow find peace within yourself and surrender.  The sea calms…the sun shines again and you come upon a land full of beauty and magic, where you find people who are full of love and compassion, truth and honesty, a place full of light that feels like home.

I had a dream earlier in the year when things seemed to really be falling apart all around me.  I went to sleep this particular night riddled with worry and fear and guilt.  I dreamed that I was walking through a seemingly familiar part of the forest with a girlfriend of mine, just taking a walk and chatting. To the right of us on the path was a mailbox.  When I saw the mailbox, I remember thinking to myself within the dream that I was about to receive a message.  Suddenly, the forest began to flood.  We’re talking flash flooding of epic proportions.  I remember distinctly how calm I was in this dream.  The rush of water and the threat of danger didn’t seem to faze me at all.  I casually walked over to a wooden table (yes, there was a table in the middle of the woods) and flipped it over and my girlfriend and I rode that table like a raft over those harsh waters, through the woods and the darkness, until when we finally reached a sunny, green meadow.  The sense of calm I felt in this dream carried on with me into my waking life, for the most part, for days/weeks to come.  I knew that everything was (eventually) going to be okay.

All I know is right now, on the eve of my 33rd birthday, is that I’m feeling very happy, loved, centered, appreciated, excited, confident, proud, humbled, energetic, and connected.  I took a hard turn inward this year, folks – the better part of this year (of course once my motherly duties/responsibilities have been taken care of) has been spent in solitude.  Solitude can be frightening.  And at times it has been.  Solitude has really afforded me an opportunity to take a step back from constant chatter, running dialogue, time-killers or any other distractions, and allowed me to really dig in and find my center, that place we all have within us where we can go and really become familiar with our true selves.  During pregnancy, I became very aware and in-tune with my physical body.  And now, thanks to my good and very dear friend, Solitude, I am very much in tune with myself as a soul, and as an energetic body within this physical manifestation.  I’ve been able to ask myself the hard questions and oddly enough, receive the answers.   I’ve really been able to work through feelings and emotions I had no idea even existed.  I have come to know, first-hand, that what we put out there in this world is what we get in return.  And I am proud of the woman I am becoming because the woman I am becoming isn’t afraid to speak up for, stand up for, or to be true to herself.  Long-gone are the days I give a shit about what anyone thinks of me or the decisions that I make.  We come into this world alone and we exit alone – it’s not about everyone else, it’s about our own journey.  An unfortunate misconception is thinking that this is selfish.  There is nothing selfish about self-love.  We are only able to offer love and our best-selves to others if we can come to love ourselves.

It’s been a remarkable year. A magical year.  A year of great change. A year of truth. A year of realization and of transcendence. An evolutionary year…and I wholeheartedly believe that this beautiful year marks the beginning of a journey that will prove to be nothing short of amazing. I am eternally grateful for the knowledge I’ve gained, not only about myself, but about the magical parts of this world, this place, this existence, and the parts “unseen.” I’m so very thankful for being afforded a gift, the gift of helping others in ways I’ve been helped. This ability has ignited a passion within me that I could have never before imagined. My heart is full of pure love and gratitude for the many blessings that my 32nd year has given me.

So, now I’d like to say, “Thank you.”
Thank you to the ones that have stuck by me throughout this year, for not judging me and for simply wanting me to be happy. To the one who’s been my guinea pig, letting me test out my energy healing capabilities and helping me decipher my gifts and for being so supportive and such a wonderful friend. To my family for their understanding, support, and unconditional love.  To the powers unseen for bringing into my life those I couldn’t imagine living this life without, even if we never actually meet. “Thank you” immensely to those who have given me an opportunity to share in their energetic experiences, and for allowing me to do something that they may not fully understand but for being open and willing to take a chance on me. And “thank you” to the one, the one who has been there every day, in every way, making the darker days brighter and the good days even better.

I have a really great feeling about 33.

Aha!

Let’s talk about “Frame of Knowledge” and the necessity to think outside the box, shall we?

“Most people are only looking inside our frame of knowledge, in other words, they only relate to what they can see, verify and test.  They rely only on their 5 senses to tell them what their reality is.  They are only using their sensory level to define their frame of knowledge in the time we are living.  This frame, however, seems to change when science can tell us that something is true.  Our frame of knowledge is constantly changing since science is showing us ‘new’ truths.  Our frame of knowledge has been changing as long as we have lived on this planet.  It is about time we realize that something can be a reality even though we can’t use our 5 senses to verify it.”

Open your mind.  We ought to realize that what we think is impossible today might be a totally obvious and known fact in 10 years time.  Perfect example:  cell phones.  Who would have ever thought that we would have the ability to talk to someone across the globe on this tiny gadget that has the capacity to store thousands of songs and take pictures – completely wireless.  If you would have told me back in the day when I used to talk to my friends from the phone with a cord six miles long that hung on the kitchen wall that one day I’d be able to talk, in private, on this tiny little rectangle electronic device without a cord….that junk would have gotten a resounding “YEAH RIGHT!”  I mean, bag phones weren’t even a thing then.  But now, cell phones are a totally common-place thing, completely wireless, and the people of the world’s “frame of knowledge” has since changed because of them. 

Just because you can’t see it…doesn’t mean it isn’t possible.

Perhaps you’ve experienced something similar in your own life, something that changed your “frame of knowledge.”  Maybe you’ve read a book or seen a movie that just triggered something in you and you had that Everyone-I-Know-Needs-To-Experience-This-Too-RIGHT-NOW Moment.  Maybe you’ve had one of those experiences that sort of forced you to see things in a different way.  There are so many things that can be talked to death, explained and regurgitated in different ways over and over, but there’s something to be said about actually experiencing something, and in this “new” experience, knowing that you’ll never be able to go back to that “old” way of thinking.  And, just like that…your “frame of knowledge” changed.

Personally, I’ve had quite a few of these frame-changing experiences as of late, but I would like to share one in particular that was just, as Oprah likes to call it, an “Aha!” moment for me.  A while back, I went through this period of time where I was watching tons of pretty obscure YouTube videos (it’s addicting, I tell ya) and one night I happened to come across this one video called “Sacred Knowledge of Vibrations and Water.”  (I will embed the video below if you care to watch)  The guy in the video has really ridiculous hair and the video is 19 minutes long, but once I watched this video, my “frame of knowledge” absolutely changed.  Unless you watch and experience the video (WHICH YOU SHOULD!) for yourself, I understand that “Sacred Knowledge of Vibrations and Water” potentially sounds awfully boring and not very interesting at all – BUT – if you watch this video and really think and understand how it applies to you, your body, your life, and everything else for that matter…no doubt you will be amazed.

The part of the video that was so profound for me was when it showed what happens when water is exposed to the vibration of certain words such as “thank you,” “love and appreciation,” and “you make me sick I will kill you.”  The vibration of certain words actually changes the water at a molecular level.  For instance, when exposed to the words “thank you” or “love and appreciation,” the actual molecular shape of the water changes into this beautiful snow-flake-looking geometrical shape.  Whereas, when exposed to the words “you make me sick I will kill you,” the molecular shape of the water looks chaotic and erratic, like an explosion.  The real “Aha!” moment came for me when I coupled this new information with the known fact that our bodies are made of practically 90% water.  From that moment forward, this new-found knowledge of vibration and frequency became something that I put a lot of time into wanting to learn and understand.  Something as simple as the words we speak, the music we listen to, or the thoughts and feelings we have, absolutely has a direct impact on us at a molecular level.

Unfortunately, the Law of Vibration might not be as well-known as, let’s say, the Law of Gravity.  But, when you open yourself up to this information and you begin to understand that everything – and I mean everything – moves and vibrates, you begin to look at the world around you a bit differently.   This realization, that all that you see around you – the table, car, tree, even our thoughts and feelings – is vibrating at one frequency or another and so are you, once understood, has the potential to really change one’s “frame of knowledge” IF that person can get past that age-old way of thinking that just because they can’t see it…it isn’t possible.

Let’s go back to experience.  I know that I’m always posting something or another on Facebook about energy or vibration or frequency and, you know, it’s one of those things that if you don’t make yourself aware of these concepts…if you don’t open yourself up to these ideas and change your “frame of knowledge” it’s easy to see those words and bypass them with not another thought.  The same thing can be said for energy work.  I’ve been fortunate enough to have a lot of people who are super open to learning about and experiencing the energy work that I do and although they may not understand it at first, once they have had the experience, once they have felt the energy so palpably they realize that just because they couldn’t SEE IT, it happened.  They felt it.  It’s quite an undeniable experience – a true “Aha!” moment for them, for sure.  Their “frame of knowledge” then changes.  On the other side of the coin, I’ve had people tell me that they think that “energy work,” and the like, is total new age bullsh*t.  And, you know…that’s totally fine, too.

The energy work, for me, is my Everyone-I-Know-Needs-To-Experience-This-Too-RIGHT-NOW thing, and for several reasons. First of all, when I started learning about all of this stuff, I was happy to have finally been introduced to such beautiful concepts that I had not previously known but, at the same time, totally bummed wishing I had known about this YEARS AGO (thanks for nothing, school)!  Second of all, why wait to experience energy work 10 years from now when it becomes common-knowledge?  Do it now!  Think outside the box!  Be ahead of the game!  Unless you’re just completely afraid of change, why not enjoy a new experience that could potentially change your “frame of knowledge”?  Most of all, I’ve seen how very beneficial this work can be for those who open themselves up to the experience. Being able to help others, in any way I can, brings me such joy and I am so appreciative of the opportunity.  It does my soul good to share anything that I think may help or benefit someone in some way, or at the very least, bring a smile to someone’s face.

I encourage those who took the time to read this to, at the very least, give the “Sacred Knowledge of Vibrations and Water” video a chance, if you’re not already familiar, of course. Again, the man’s hair is awful and the video looks like it came straight out the 80’s, but hasn’t your mama ever told you to not judge a book by its cover?!  And, if you’ve had any of these “Aha!” moments that truly changed your “frame of knowledge,” please share!  I’d love to hear about them!  But most importantly, don’t be afraid to break the mold, think outside of the box, and change your own “frame of knowledge.”  Don’t depend on others to gain knowledge in this world…use that beautiful brain in that beautiful body of yours and if you come across something that sparks your interest, as unconventional as it may seem, watch it/read it/experience it!  One can NEVER have enough “Aha!” moments, so create your own.

Sacred knowledge of Vibrations and Water:

Enlighten Me

It’s fairly safe to say that my life has drastically changed over the course of the last couple of years. Hindsight truly is 20/20, isn’t it? It’s very interesting when I think back on these seemingly small occurrences – these synchronicities – that have taken place over time and how each one, each moment, was a stepping stone to where I am today. It would be easy to say that I was simply “living life.” But, I don’t think that’s a fair depiction of what I’ve been going through. I think that instead of saying that I’ve just been living life the past few years, it makes more sense to say that “I’ve been living realization.”

“We do not create our destiny; we participate in its unfolding. Synchronicity works as a catalyst toward the working out of that destiny.” – David Richo

As I was growing up, I never really thought to myself, “You know, Amy…one of these days you’re going to speak with a medium and he’s going to set in motion a whole new perspective on life for you.” There was really no way of knowing, and still isn’t, what life had/has in store for me. Things work in their own way and in their own time, although I do firmly believe that we have some form of control in whether our experiences are positive and enriching vs. negative and suppressive. And we absolutely have to be willing to pay attention to the opportunities that arise, our “cubic centimeters of chance,” because these sometimes surprising and spontaneous forks in the road are where the magic happens.

I tend to say it all started nearly three years ago after having had a conversation with a medium, but actually the ball started slowly rolling long before that, not too terribly long after the death of my great aunt. My Aunt Clara and I shared the same birthday, 11/26. I always felt a very strong connection to her. I thought she was the bee’s knees and just always really loved the fact that we had this special birthday thing that we could share. She passed when I was 18 and in the years since, there is not a day that has gone by that she is not on my mind. It’s very rare I leave the house without wearing the smokey quartz ring she left for me, sort of like I’m carrying her around with me each day. Clara always radiated this energy that made me feel safe and loved and comforted and adored. It was effortless the way she would just envelope me with her love without even having to say a word; it was just the nature of her being. When her health began to fail, I didn’t realize it at the time, but I started distancing myself from it all. Death was something that I just could not understand – thanks to organized religions and the varying and skewed versions and strict beliefs and opinions of the afterlife. It was all very confusing and convoluted and none of it really resonated with me. So, I pushed it away. Everything happens for a reason, and I generally have no regrets, but when I think about her I really wish that I would have had the understanding then to recognize the importance of having spent time with her instead of being a selfish teen with a seemingly-more-important social life. Such is life.

A few years ago I started noticing 11:26 on the clock…a lot. Twice a day. Every day. Maybe I consciously created this myself over time – it’s definitely possible – but I like to think that it’s some universal reminder that she’s always around and watching over me. In the beginning I just brushed it off as a pretty cool coincidence but once it became a twice-a-day thing…it got my wheels turning. My thoughts of her eventually evolved into this extreme sense of longing that was building inside of me and this longing eventually pushed me to the point of wanting more.

I became desperate to connect. Not sure exactly what I was expecting to get out of this connection – it’s not that I was wondering if my aunt was okay, or if she made it to Heaven…maybe I knew she was watching and I needed her validation and approval of the way I was choosing to live my life. Honestly, I think maybe I wanted to know that I was doing a good job and that she was proud of me. This wanting drove me to seek out a potential connection.

As crazy as it sounds, one day I was perusing the interwebs and I ended up on Craigslist. Yes, Craigslist. I don’t even remember why I was on there at the time but I came across this random discussion thread and started reading. Next thing I know I see a post by a “medium” followed by an e-mail address. Should I? Shouldn’t I? What’s the harm in it? It couldn’t hurt, right? I decided to take my “cubic centimeter of chance” and I sent him an e-mail, which was aptly titled “Happenstance.” After weeks of correspondence via e-mail, during which I realized that the longing I had been feeling for my aunt was not for her at all, because I knew she was fine and I knew she always with me, it was actually a longing to learn the truth – to open my heart and mind to more. I finally had a phone conversation with my new-found friend (and medium), George. George spent an hour and a half with me on the phone practically blowing my mind. It happens just like you see on television – this person relaying tiny fragments of your life to you in such a manner that makes you fully aware that the information that’s being relayed to you is coming from some source that wants to make a connection –precise little bits of information that you know were meant only for you and only you would understand them. Whether one realizes it or not, it’s a very healing experience. Although I didn’t connect with my Aunt Clara, I had several other connections take place which were pretty amazing and in those moments of validation, it became less about the connections for me and more about the fact that my world had just become a lot less narrow. The doors of my mind flew open when I realized that if this was possible then there was bound to be more going on out there that I wasn’t privy to and this fueled my search for my truth.

“The universe conspires to reveal the truth and to make your path easy if you have the courage to follow the signs.” – Lisa Unger

Regardless of whether 11:26 on the clock twice a day means anything to anyone else, to me it had purpose. These numbers led to longing, which led to want, which led to exploration and, in turn, led to validation and the sense of knowing that there is just SO MUCH MORE to this beautiful world that what we can see with our eyes. Needless to say, this realization was just the beginning of my – to throw out a popular term – “awakening.” A harsh reality for me through the past few years has been coming to terms with HOW LITTLE we are taught that is of any worth or value to the actual purpose of our being here on this planet. And I’m only speaking from my experience when I say that I have felt nothing quite as deep, aside from love, as the realization that I am, that we truly are, spiritual beings having a human experience.